Jumping tears with Rain on Guitar
When
I looked at my watch, it had been 12:30 a.m. However I couldn’t sleep till at
that time. In fact, I was thinking of something and might not see the accurate
answer of it. I was attempting to pull out that from my brain. When I was
thinking of that affair, it made me alarm and took me away. And I got up,
switched on the light and lit my cigarette. I decided to wear jeans and jacket
because I was going to get out side soon.
After
I had worn beanie I bought in Christmas, and took guitar. This is my behavior;
I always take guitar, even I won’t sing, if I go out. The door was locked and,
I put it in my jacket. All surroundings were too quite and cold. Actually I
also didn’t know myself where would I go. I followed the direction of my legs
and stepped forward something. When I reach in front of ‘Whisky Lover ’, my
steps were stopped. I knew what I wanted to do. I didn’t know exactly how much
I drunk, nevertheless I could not work well and guitar had been to hold tightly
in my chest.
I
continued my steps forward and nobody was on the street. I decided to go to the
University Park because I wanted to watch the fishes in the channel. Another
reason was I would tell a bout these to my sister. She too loved the fishes and
loved me. I wanted to tell you something, my sister was the only person I loved
in the word, and she could understand my feeling. I would not like to share you
about my parents. I too remembered and wanted her to be with me now.
It’s
so cold and couldn’t see well the path. Suddenly I was so upset and wanted to
cry. I though that fate was unfair for me and the people also was not justice.
There was no justice in the word. The people made pretence day by day and I
hated them. Now I didn’t want to step forward, thus I sat on the bench. And I
tried to be able to light at cigarette. I felt like I lost all my hope. I
smoked cigarette and started play guitar. But I couldn’t think which song would
I sang.
Whatsoever
I started singing the song ‘No Man’ and I really loved this song. I wanted to
share you the meaning of this song. “I
fear to come back home with many demands, I do not know who am I. I should not
be called as a man. While waiting for the day I hope, sometime it is so hard to
breathe, and it is like walking in dream.” I was good mood in this song.
When I looked in the sky, it’s so clear and there were a lot of stars on the
sky. Suddenly all the sky gradually filled with the cloud. After a few minute,
it started rain, but I didn’t stop singing.
It was raining heavily and I was singing
loudly. My tears were dropping on the guitar with the rain. If you asked me why
you cried, I had no reason for this, but I cried. If my sister were with me, I
had something to tell. Although I wanted to still sing, I needed to step
forward my hostel as my guitar would be broken. I was walking step be step
while hugging the guitar in my chest. It’ too cold, so I took a cigarette from
my pocket. However all cigarette were be wet and broken, and lost my lighter. I
didn’t remember where it was lost.
All
my body was moist and I had covered my guitar with my jacket not to be wet. I
kept on going to the hostel dismally. I
so feared the coming days and had no force and to face it. I felt that it was
like I was walking on the way that I couldn’t see and there was no light. I
asked myself ‘who am I’. This was one theory of the answer I wanted to get.
This
is my crazy story when I was at university, and also ‘The Night I couldn’t
sleep’. That’s all what I remember concerning with that night. As I got drunk
too much, I can’t remember what happens continued after that. Luckily guitar
was not broken. The last one I want to say is ‘I still live in the world and
Thanks Lord’.
Thang Mawi
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